The God we serve can truly do more than we can ask or think. Thankfully, when we truly seek Him, our hearts begin to resemble His in ways we could never imagine…. and, amazingly, our heart’s desires become more and more in line with His desires for us.
When we first began this journey to family-hood, knowing that we would need assistance with having children – I was, what I now see, very selfish and closed minded in how I wanted to go about having a family. My visions were limited to having children of my “own”. I wanted children who had my and Thomas’ idiosyncrasies… ones who looked just like us, who had our chunky cheeks, my bad eyes, his love for debate, and my eyes and uncanny ability to make inappropriate faces. I wanted little versions of us.
So, up until a few months ago, we’d planned to begin fertility treatments again in 2013 – really doing what we had to do in order to have children.
Over the past year or so, I’ve really began to understand who God is and what He expects from us. As well as, who I am to Him. One of my favorite expectations that God has for us, is show others the same grace, mercy, love, and forgiveness that He so freely gives us daily.
And, a couple of months ago, He showed me that adoption can also be added to that list. I hadn’t told Thomas because I thought he would think I was a freakout who was “over Christian-izing” ( I made that up) this whole experience. (He never does, by the way. I was just scared!)
God bought us. He adopted us into His family and by His grace and love, shapes us and molds us to look just like Him.
…. Annnnnnnnnnnnnnnd, we were bought. By blood. A high price.
Thomas and I are on Adoption Track and I am so grateful and thankful, already, that God has opened my heart to this amazing opportunity and the possibility of a family.
And, thankfully and prayerfully, we’ll be able to start from the very beginning.
And, based on an agency interest meeting we went to today, it can happen much quicker than we ever imagined. We have two other meetings with different over the next week and a half and I’m very hopeful for what’s in store.
The meeting today was for an agency that will require a HIGH PRICE…. the later two are for state agencies that are FREE. Not a tough choice, right? Seems like it. But, we’re leaving our options open and trusting God.
I’m already going crazy and trying not to go into over drive although it seems like we may need to get somethings together quite quickly! Trying to be patient. Trying not to over-think or over-do because we all know that I can.
(……….. God, bless these children and my husband with a desire to humor me and enjoy smiling graciously as I torture them with my antics, arts and crafts, clothing ideas, and picture taking frenzies. In Jesus’ name.) Seriously. But because, if you know me. You know, they’ll need it. (innocent smile.)
God is good.
And, has blessed us with more room (i.e. a bigger house!!!) One that we love, one that is PERFECT, one that has enough room for us and another person or two.
Thank you for coming along this journey with us. Please pray that we continue to trust God and make FAITH BASED decisions as we take a road we never thought we’d travel. Join us as we pray for our babies! (Yes, I’ve been praying for babIES!!) Just seems right. 🙂 I pray for their parents, for their journey to us, for their lives, for THEM.
… here’s to, for once, not being scared.