I love reading blogs… learning the different things that various families and people are experiencing … looking at the pictures (And, I’ve shown so few – I apologize!!!) …. exploring these families’ traditions and the in’s and out’s of their lives. Although I peruse quite a bit, I only follow two families and their stories are astounding. Their lives’ experiences are painful yet to “see” how they have managed to enjoy the sunlight is something I am in awe over.
Each difficult experience that we carry out with courage and grace reminds us that we can do even more, if we just try.
Yes, we surely can.
This quote is the lock screen on my phone and serves as a silent reminder that I can do the very things I FEEL I have no patience, tolerance, skill, ability, or (momentary) desire to do.
I CAN… exercise some self control and self discipline. I don’t have to allow my feelings to override my logic.
I don’t have to “act out” when I’m disappointed, upset, or frustrated. For acting out is how those who lack self control and maturity behave.
Those are the thoughts that cross my mind, the ones I say to myself over and over again when I want to give in…. when I’m stressed to the max and just want to shut everything down and either cry or scroll through Twitter or Instagram to calm down from “over stimulation”. When I don’t think I can take or do anymore. When I feel like I’m drowning. When I just don’t feel like I can handle everything that’s on my plate. When my heart is broken and it’s a struggle to get through the day without a crying. When I feel like I’m on an island. When I feel as if I’m not enough. When you don’t feel that _____ will ever happen…..
All of these feelings and the circumstances that bring those feelings to the surface…… those FEELINGS do not trump what I know and believe to be true.
Though these feelings may be real, they do not rule.
The days will be long and hard, stressful, and brimming with pain but they will end. And, a new one will begin.
The hard part of not allowing my feelings to rule is learning HOW to not act out because of how we feel. It’s difficult to LEARN how to do things that are the complete opposite of what you “know” to be true.
I’m not sure if many of my coping mechanisms are worth sharing but what I know works everytime is to take a deep breathe, share your heart, cast your cares, and lastly…
I posted here that I live in limbo… living both incredibly happy and incredibly sad at the same time. I wish I knew how those two emotions can simultaneously coexist….. but, they do. And, when the sadness begins to override the happiness I share my heart, cast my cares, and verbalize who God is and what I’m grateful for…. then, my perspective changes.
I trust who He is and His plan for my life…. I trust that I am in His hands, in His care, and that He’s mindful of me. He hasn’t forgotten about me. And, above all, He loves me.
… here’s to getting past the pain, the shattered heart, and all the hard stuff knowing that all these things work together for good for those who love Him and are called according to His purpose.
… here’s three cheers to getting the hard things done and a.mayes-ing while doing it. I do hard things because tough times don’t last but tough people do. *** flexes my biceps ***